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the enemy within

David is his own worst enemy. With the increase in behaviors, our psych team has discussed changing one of his medicines. We aren’t doing a wholesale med wash like we used to do. Rather we are increasing one of the stabilizers. Hopefully we will see a change. When we met with the psych team, I commented – in front of David – that the last time he was discharged home from a residential placement, he lasted 8 months before we had to look for placement. We are in month 3, and a review of my posts from that time, shows that he is on track for another placement. I hate the idea of sending him to another facility, but if he can’t maintain behaviors that are acceptable to society, can’t stop lying, being vocally aggressive to staff and/or going into a rage because he has been caught doing something that

the degradation of a boy’s mental health

I post frequently about the things that David does, and the things that we deal with. You really need to know, I don’t post everything. It is sad to watch the gradual decline of a person’s mental health. His mental stability. For so long, everything was fairly smooth. It’s just in the last couple of weeks that things have really started to go downhill. With children, we have great hopes in their future. With David, we have great hopes for the future. Some days I dream that I am leaving a prison where I was visiting him. Having been to prisons to visit my step-brother, I know what the visiting areas are like, so it wasn’t like I was an inmate being released. My fear? My biggest fear is that one day, he will do something so drastic, so severe, that there will be no attempting to save him. I

I am confused…

Today, David and I had been having a great day. Laughing. The phone rang, since I had my hands in dishwater I asked him to answer it. He put it on speakerphone. I asked him to hold it close, instead he accused me of not wanting him around. How does, hold the phone equal “you don’t want me around.”? I asked him to explain it, and he doesn’t know how to. He went from nice to mean in the space of a couple of minutes. and continued to be ornery mean for 20 minutes. I wish I understood, as then I could avoid whatever set him off. Sadly, with mental illness, we may never know. Tweet #fighting4answrs