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I am confused…

Today, David and I had been having a great day.  Laughing. The phone rang, since I had my hands in dishwater I asked him to answer it.  He put it on speakerphone. I asked him to hold it close, instead he accused me of not wanting him around. How does, hold the phone equal “you don’t want me around.”? I asked him to explain it, and he doesn’t know how to. He went from nice to mean in the space of a couple of minutes.  and continued to be ornery mean for 20 minutes. I wish I understood, as then I could avoid whatever set him off.  Sadly, with mental illness, we may never know. Tweet #fighting4answrs

So I had another thought today….

I know, dangerous right? Both times that David had manic type behaviors he had done something that he knew could result in him losing priviliges. How can I ever confront him about something, if I know there is a risk he is going to go off like that? Yesterday, I caught him in an area of town he wasn’t supposed to be in. He finally admitted to breaking a mirror on the van and a window on the house. I am fairly certain he stole some cash, but a quick search of his pockets turns up nothing.  And he started with the behaviors.  So I quickly dropped it and said I must have just lost the money.    I shouldn’t have to worry about my kid hurting himself or someone else just because he can’t follow the rules, and then gets upset when he is caught. On the other hand, it

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a brand new day

Today is a brand new day for David. This morning, he was complaining of being stiff and sore.  So I talked about the work that his muscles did to support his body yesterday while he was manic.   He said he doesn’t like it. In talking with David today, I learned that he was upset that he was going to be in trouble for riding in a vehicle, being in a place he wasn’t supposed to be and for borrowing garden tools.    He rode in a friends truck, he was outside the boundary established for him to be in, so that we know where to look for him, and he took a cultivator and garden rake without permission. For the record, until this morning, I knew about the boundary issue, but not where he ended up telling me about.  I knew the garden tools were a possibility. So much behavior for

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