Dad, It’s okay to be angry. Just wanted to take a few minutes and tell you something. You are in a place that is not what you are used to. It isn’t your home. It isn’t the life that you remember. The sad thing Dad? Most days, nothing about that day is the life that you remember. Your mind is playing tricks on you. It lets you see what it wants you to see. Your mind lets you forget things that are important to you. Conversations to remember. What I like is the conversations that we share. I’d like to hear about that John Deere Propane, you remember? the one that you put standard tractor tires on… Or Lance. Your favorite horse. About the flooding of the creek near the home place. The one you drove thru where the water was deep enough that you could reach out the window
Is it ok for me to be tired of all of this? I’ll be more positive next week. They evidently think that David’s behaviors/anger has nothing to do with his bipolar. They moved him upstairs, he has himself convinced that it is because one of his peers was pounding on the wall. He claims that the cut on his knee was a result of an accident. He broke the window, and then when they restrained him, he got cut. This is what he is telling people. I don’t believe him. If the cut was an accident, and it is possible that it was, given the history of him repeatedly threatening to do so, why did he put his fingers into the wound, after they took the glass away from him, and start pulling on it to make it bigger? Who does something like that? He claims that he is homesick.
My goal is to raise awareness. Please, if you read my blog, share it with others. Our beautiful son is not the only child who is struggling with mental illness. There are others out there. So please, share my blog with others that we might work together to raise awareness. Awareness begins with one voice and builds steam from there. I know quite a few parents who have been fighting for their children for a long time, far longer than we have been fighting for Marc. Voice’s get tired. People get tired. So let’s rally the troops.
Mental illness encompasses a broad range of things. Each mental illness is important.
Thank you again for your support. It means the world to my family. To me.