Category Archives: bipolar disorder

nights like this

I have to wonder… “Is this behavior that of a 13 year old boy, or his mental health?” See our other two boys didn’t give us all the sass, back talk, attitude and behaviors.  Or maybe I just don’t remember the behaviors because we were so busy dealing with David’s issues. Not sure if that is a blessing or not. How can we turn bedtime into a struggle for right and wrong? He claims to be funny, I think that he needs a visit with a bar of soap. Alas, I bite my tongue. If I raise my voice at all from a normal conversational tone, then he calls me out for yelling at him.  So I raise my voice a little louder in self-defense. If I call him on his behaviors, he asks if he can pack a bag to save time tomorrow when I take him back to

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Encouragement

What is it like to live in fear? Having never lived in a war zone, or been active in a war zone, I can’t say that our experience compares to that. What I can say is this. Living day to day on edge constantly because you don’t know from one minute to the next what your child is going to do, whether or not they are going to explode in anger, assault you, throw themselves at the wall, steal things, or try to kill the family pets will take a huge toll on you.  If he is angry enough to carve on himself, to then reach into that wound and make the wound larger by tearing his own flesh with his own hands, what is he capable of doing to someone else? When a child can easily go 48 hours without sleep, it takes a toll. When you have chronic

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Looking back

We fought so hard to keep from placing David in a facility.  Now, we are fighting to keep him there. I never would have thought this day would come.  Last year at this time, we were upset because we had to move him to a new facility. This year I would love to know that he can stay in a facility. This isn’t me admitting defeat.  This is me begging for help. This is me admitting that we are beyond powerless to do this ourselves. Tomorrow, we start prep with the school for his return. Tomorrow, we start prep for his return home. Tomorrow, we appeal. Tomorrow, the fight begins anew. Wish us luck.  Wish David luck.  After all, we only want the best for him.   Tweet #fighting4answrs