carl, Author at Fighting for Answers

it is 2am why am I still awake?

It is 2am here in why not fathers land.

The doctor would have a conniption if she knew I was awake all night long.

David has only been gone a couple of days, it isn’t that easy to readjust your internal clock without taking a huge amount of pills for a couple of days to do it. Plus, my body doesn’t respond well to forced wakefulness. It has to do things gradually.

It comes from having Lupus, Fibromyalgia and Hypothyroidism. You learn to do things gradually.

Oh well, tomorrow night I can start working on my book a bit, and a few other things that I put off while I was caring for David full time.

10 Tips to Reset Your Internal Clock (everydayhealth.com)
What Keeps Me Awake At Night (everydaygyaan.com)

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remember the little things…

Now I could wax poetic about remembering the little things…

But.

With David gone, we remember the little idiosyncrasies that make him who he is. So I have to send a message to staff every time I remember something. How long before they get tired of hearing from me?

Today, we discovered David is on a computer. 🙂 Don’t ask how we know, I won’t tell. So I sent a note to staff letting them know that David is good at hacking facebook, and has been known to threaten people via facebook.

Don’t get me wrong, there are a lot of good things about David, but there are also things that can bring him or others harm.

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humbled by the number of people

I am humbled by the number of people who are reading my blog. I didn’t think that our life was interesting.

I dropped some stuff off for David today. He saw us while he was walking and even pointed at the van as if to say “hey, that looks like our van”. But by the time I got to where he was, he had disappeared. Not sure what that was about.

Back to yesterday when we admitted him to the facility.

I think that the hardest part of the whole thing was the complete lack of affect. He was interested in two things. Food and bed.

That said, he did have a good first night there.

In honesty, I wonder how long it will take for me to sleep at night instead of during the daytime?

Ah well, thank you everyone for the positive comments, the prayers and even the negative comments, though they are few, because they make us look at things from a new perspective.

To all of those people who have children with reactive attachment disorder, know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. You are not alone.