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calm before a very chaotic storm
Earlier, I wrote to you about David’s explosion of behavior. I looked just now, and that post never published. I evidently saved it as a draft. So it will seem like these events are coming back to back, in reality, it has been a couple of hours. We had about 2 hours of calm. And then. One would think that Mt. Etna erupted. By the time things calmed, David was restrained multiple times. He became combative. I should really say that it all started with a grin. That grin that says hell is coming. His grin. The one I should know so well, that means he is about to come unglued. Sadly, I missed the sign that was staring me in the face. So tonight I am the worst father, my wife is the worst mother, we are the worst family. He said “he wants a new family”. My wife
want to know something scary?
Today we had a bit of a go. He didn’t want to listen. I would tell him to do something and he would laugh and grin. I would get him into his shoes, and he would take off his coat. He would put on his coat, and then take off his shoes. I got hold of his hand, and thinking he was going to kick at me, I ended up kicking him. Later after we both calmed down, we left to run the grocery errand. I asked him. “Do you like how you feel when you upset or hurt someone?” “Yes, sometimes I do.” was his reply. He said “it feels like when I got the DS. (his gameboy) or when I found out I was coming home.” In the grand scheme of things, today didn’t have to happen. I should have walked away. I can’t leave him home alone