Gun Control Rarely is there a more hot button topic than gun control. Every time there is a shooting in our country, people start the roar of support for gun control. What follows is my personal opinion about gun control. In our home, we have had guns. The key word is had. With David in our home, I don’t feel safe having firearms in our home. Too much risk for too little reward. The guns aren’t the issue here. Mental and behavioral health are the issue. Criminals are the issue. We could have the most stringent gun laws in the world, and it would make no difference on access to those guns by the people who do not abide by common sense and the law. Regardless of the law, if people want guns bad enough they will get them. Look back at prohibition when alcohol was outlawed. Did the law
I need to apologize to some people. I had a moment of weakness last night in which I actually gave up fighting for David. I apologize to David for doing so. He deserves a lot of things, but he doesn’t deserve me giving up on him. I apologize to myself. For so long, I have been in a passionate robot like state trying to survive this life with him, and I have been doing myself a disservice in that regard. Last night something in me just let go, and I guess every once in a while that needs to happen. It helps remind me that I am not the robot dad. There is a part of me that forgot what I was fighting for. So the struggle will continue. Why? Because every child deserves to be loved and to have someone fight for them. I have an electroencephalogram this afternoon.
I have to admit. I am struggling. I am struggling with caring about someone who has no caring for the people around him. I am tired of being lied to, stolen from and feeling like I am robbing my children of their childhood. I am struggling with my health again. I don’t want to go back to the place where heart events and strokes happen. I am not giving up. I am just trying to take care of me a little better. At this point we are in a holding pattern held hostage by behaviors. Sure we shouldn’t feel like this, we shouldn’t let the way he is control everything about our world, but what else is there? We can’t leave him alone, because he does things and takes things that aren’t his. We can’t leave one of the boys in charge, since he would hurt them. I don’t dare