This week, I learned the results of the latest Child and Protective Services (CPS) investigation. Because of allegations made by David, we believe he was attempting to manipulate the system to get to live where he wants rather than at home, there was a complaint made against me. The complaint said that I “was exploiting my son, that I threw him to the sidewalk, that I hugged him too much, as well as told him “I love you”, and that I was antagonizing him to provoke a response.” I wrote about it when I first learned of the investigation. Remember? There was an investigation before that regarding washing David’s mouth out with soap. Initially when the complaint in October came out, I met with a detective from the Sheriff’s office. From that meeting, I stated that I would change my son’s name to David for the purposes of this blog.
I find that the stress is getting to me. I am losing weight, in part because of the stress. My Lupus is active, something I strive to put at rest so that I can live as full a life as possible. When my Lupus is active, I lose weight. The Lupus causes all manner of issues with my health. I am not sleeping at night as well as I should be. The difficulty comes from not being able to turn off my brain. From constantly wondering “what happens next?” I am not up for any parent of the year awards, but I know darn well that I am not the world’s worst parent either. I am struggling to understand why these things are happening to us. I don’t know, but in the end, I believe that I can take solace in the fact that we are doing the best that
I am under investigation again. For using pressure point holds on my son when I feel that he is a danger to himself or others. Oh, and for my blog. Because it might be detrimental to his mental health. The blog, which our son doesn’t have access to unless he is on technology that he isn’t supposed to use has been instrumental in getting him the services that he needs. I feel like I am being harassed by this agency. I am not certain that I understand why I am being targeted. Is it because I use my voice to say when people are doing things wrong? Is it because they actually believe that I am beating my son? Because the allegations aren’t that I am beating him. The allegations are that I am restraining him. That I am provoking a response.from David in order to have something to write