A couple of weeks ago, I attended a training event for Trauma Sensitive Schools. During that training, reference was made to a video on Youtube called “Removed”. This clip has a theme regarding foster care, as well as child abuse/neglect. This video is not for the fainthearted. It is powerful and speaks to child abuse/neglect as well as foster care. Note that the child carries their belongings in a garbage bag. There are initiatives that will collect suitcases and rolling bags for kids in foster care so that they don’t have to use garbage bags. The video is very accurate in it’s portrayal. I warn you in advance that it may trigger your emotions. Especially if this video is similar to a life that you led. Typically all of their belongings fit into the one garbage bag. This is a two part video. I am linking to part 1 today.
I cried today. I cried while mowing my lawn. Mowing gives you time to think. The drone of the mower is perfect for masking thoughts, for allowing them a fertile breeding ground. I cried for David. For the little boy who wants so desperately to be loved, yet pushes away and punishes those who love him most, his family. I cried for the hope that is diminishing a little each day. A hope that he will see that what he is doing is wrong, and the way he treats people is wrong. I cried out in prayer. Something that I do everyday. Pray. Does God hear my prayers? I believe that he does. I believe that David was brought into our lives for a reason. Ours is not to question why. Yet we struggle daily with his behaviors, his attitude, the words he says, the things he does. We struggle.
Dear Why Not Fathers, I know this dad. He has a son who suffers from mental illness. Really, the whole family suffers with the mental illness of the child. No one person in the family is immune to the tragedy that is mental illness. He and his family are literally doing everything that they can to help their son. Yet, he continually doubts himself, thinking that he isn’t doing every thing that he can. He spends his days looking for other ways to help his son. To help the rest of the family. I keep telling him that he is doing every thing possible. Yet the doubt still exists. How do I convince him that he is really doing every thing that he can for his family? That the fault in the system is not his to take blame for? No amount of money can help this situation, other than