David is doing well. But then, he always does fairly well while he is in care. We do regular visits, when we go to the city, we try to at least take him out for a meal. We also spend time with him at the facility and when we do our supply shopping, he goes with us. This is all a far cry from bringing him home on a day pass. Or a weekend pass. I get that he is doing well. He is good at that. Always has been. We have seen where he struggles with success in the facility and self-sabotages that success. Last year he was home for almost 10 months. During which time, we lived what can best be characterized as a shelter, fear filled life. Not just me, but the whole family. We lived in fear of what he might do. So please, understand that
Hi, this is a post about Anxiety. I don’t know about triggers for anxiety, but you should be aware of that before reading further if you are easily triggered. thank you for reading. Long time no post. Seriously though with David in the facility there hasn’t been a lot to say. Especially because I don’t want anyone to accuse us of violating his right to privacy. Things are as good as they can be, but then, he always has thrived in facility based care. This post is about me. Last night I experienced what I can only call a panic attack. Not sure if it is anxiety driven or what, but to say it was overwhelming would be an incredible understatement. I am better today, thankfully my bride has helped me through this with her wonderful support. This is a first for me, and I hope it never happens again.
One added benefit to blogging about our son and his mental health illnesses, is that it also gives me a timeline of some of his behaviors. Of course, I don’t document everything here. But this is a good baseline for everything that he has been through. So, for example, when a facility asks me for two weeks of behaviors coupled with the dates that they occurred, I don’t have to look far. I can come here and review two weeks worth of posts and have pretty much everything. Is it everything? Like I said previously, not by a long shot. What some entries do is trigger memories of other lesser events. I guess the point I am making here, is document. Document. Document! Write down every behavior that is not right for your home. Write down that the child argued about his coat, in fact threw a fit because he