With a lot of prayer, we are going to try a visit away from the safety and comfort that being in close proximity to the facility provides us. This is about taking a chance. We are going to take a chance on faith that he is stable. This weekend, we are going to travel to the city to get David and take him for a 6 hour pass. That pass isn’t going to bring him home. Rather we are traveling to see his sister and give her some things that she forgot when she was home for Easter from college. A chance. I don’t know what we are going to feel. I don’t know how to feel about this. I just know that with deep prayer and meditation we are going to try. David had a rough day yesterday and hit one of his peers, so I am under no
David is doing well. But then, he always does fairly well while he is in care. We do regular visits, when we go to the city, we try to at least take him out for a meal. We also spend time with him at the facility and when we do our supply shopping, he goes with us. This is all a far cry from bringing him home on a day pass. Or a weekend pass. I get that he is doing well. He is good at that. Always has been. We have seen where he struggles with success in the facility and self-sabotages that success. Last year he was home for almost 10 months. During which time, we lived what can best be characterized as a shelter, fear filled life. Not just me, but the whole family. We lived in fear of what he might do. So please, understand that
Hi, this is a post about Anxiety. I don’t know about triggers for anxiety, but you should be aware of that before reading further if you are easily triggered. thank you for reading. Long time no post. Seriously though with David in the facility there hasn’t been a lot to say. Especially because I don’t want anyone to accuse us of violating his right to privacy. Things are as good as they can be, but then, he always has thrived in facility based care. This post is about me. Last night I experienced what I can only call a panic attack. Not sure if it is anxiety driven or what, but to say it was overwhelming would be an incredible understatement. I am better today, thankfully my bride has helped me through this with her wonderful support. This is a first for me, and I hope it never happens again.