Category Archives: bipolar

every day. a struggle

I am exhausted.  Mentally. he will push until I respond.  when I refuse to acknowledge him, he pushes harder. When I snap and yell at him, he is happy.  Then he says, why are you yelling?  You shouldn’t yell like that dad, it’s not healthy. So I tell him to sit and eat. No.  Not hungry. So I go to put his dishes in the sink, so I can wash them, since I am doing dishes anyway.  Now he is hungry. If I move in any direction where he might be, he acts as if I am going to chase him.  If I am close to him, he acts like I am going to hit him. You would think, I beat him severely.  I don’t.  Quite frankly, I don’t think that it would make any difference if I did. It’s sad, I sit here with my headphones on, music on. 

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the storyteller

David is gifted. Gifted at telling stories, then when caught in a lie, he is gifted at changing the story to suit what ever is going on in his head. When caught in a lie, he will turn and twist the story enough to make the listener doubt what they heard. If this happens, you need to get him to stop talking, make sure that you write down the conversation as best you can remember, then ask him to confirm details. David fails to realize that eventually the truth always comes out. Why not just tell the truth to begin with?  I have no idea. It gets more difficult to keep the story straight when details can be confirmed by calling the people he claims did things, or are doing things on his behalf. So now we wait for confirmation. Remember, you can only believe about 40% of what David

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Held Hostage by Mental Illness

Some days, I feel like a hostage in my own home. Held hostage by mental illness.  Seriously.  David had a couple of really good days.  Mom took him into the city, he spent time with his favorite Aunt.  Life was good for him. Then there are days like today.  If it isn’t his way, then he will hold the whole house hostage with his behaviors and tantrums. Pretty sad day, when one of the boys leans over and asks me how long we have to deal with the behavior David exhibits before something can be done about it. In reality, it will be a while.  Why?  Need documentation of his behaviors and mental health issues. Facility staff.. If you are reading this, whether or not you ever worked with my son, it is imperative that you document – document – document, every behavior.  I know it feels like tedium at

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