I have been struggling for a while. It seems like some days are very dark. Snappy and snarky comebacks are my friend regardless of the context of the conversation. So I approached my doctor about it. I talked to her about: Insomnia – the lack of ability to sleep. Loneliness. – feeling alone, yet needing to be alone and preferring the isolation that comes with being a disabled stay-at-home dad even though I spend a lot of time advocating for others and supporting families. Anxiety. – I don’t know how to describe the overwhelming panic, the racing heart, the rapid thoughts and their impact on life. Fear. – of my son. and that he might attack me with a shovel again. Memory issues. – forgetting things, remembering things that didn’t happen… conversation issues. So I am not crazy. Not in the traditional sense. I underwent a battery of tests with
Today I had a visit from a detective in our county. Seems that some one at the hospital has taken issue with my blog. I am being accused of exploitation because I write about my son’s mental illnesses, the people who provide care, and both the successes and failures of the mental health care system in our country. I don’t make money on the blog. I used to trade product reviews for free product, but that hasn’t been done for a very long time. I resent the thought that I would exploit my son, let’s call him David. I write about our lives with him and all of the “caregivers” because it does a number of things. Helps me deal with the events in our lives as they relate to David. Helps me educate others in relation to mental health and the crisis that our citizenry are in. Helps me
The recent suicide of Robin Williams is a tragedy for his family. For the rest of the world it is a great loss. I’ll admit to being a huge fan of the man. I understand addiction. I also understand some things about depression. Did Mr. Williams have Bipolar Disorder? I don’t know, that is between him, his family and his doctor. The discussion that we should be having on an International scale is how we as humans view and treat people with Mental Illness. Depression is a mental illness. There is no shame in being depressed, or seeking treatment for it. Yet. The headlines in one major paper referenced the fact that he was found in his bedroom, which was not the same bedroom his wife slept in. Reports are that his children are being badgered by the media, specifically people on social media who are being less than polite.