Dad’s are supposed to be able to fix things. I can’t fix this. I can’t undo the damage caused by a selfish woman who did not think of her unborn child when she proceeded to get herself loaded up on drugs.
David is on close watch again. He is under the belief that no matter what he does there, he is going to be moved to another facility. But that is not entirely why he is on close watch. He is on close watch because: he climbed to the top of his closet and hid there. he is threatening to self harm again. he is combative. he is tearing large pieces of wood from the bottom of his bed. he is at risk. I don’t know if he is delusional or what, but I do know that in the past when he has been like this, it has had a direct affect on my health. See, I have an auto-immune disorder. Lupus. Systemic. Basically what that means is my body doesn’t like me, and when I feel stress my body goes into self attack mode and tries to hurt me by
It is midnight here at the home. Just got a call from staff. David was taken off “close watch” at 2 pm this afternoon. What this means is that they have loosened his keeper. He doesn’t have someone practically attached to him. And while he will be monitored frequently, he won’t have someone sitting in his room watching him sleep. He remembers what happened yesterday, and is working to articulate what happened. This a huge positive for David. He usually doesn’t remember his manic periods. His treatment is still set back a bit, but he is still leaps and bounds where he was when he was admitted last January. Thank you to all of David’s readers. Countless numbers of you have offered prayer and positive thoughts. Believe me, in my mind it has helped. Words can not express how it feels to have so much support from people who don’t