Sunrise Attitude. It is a way of life. That person that looks grumpy. You know the one I am talking about. Suppose they had a really bad weekend. Someone they love is lost. Their child was all kinds of misbehaving. Money issues… pick one. For some reason they are having a bad day. Everyday may start out that way. Ours is not to understand why, unless they choose to involve us. Maybe that person is you. Are you a Grinch? Greet that person warmly. With a smile, a handshake. Compliment them on their attire. Did they get a haircut? Doesn’t really matter, but if you see this person regularly, nearly everyday, did they get a hair cut? Sometimes, all it takes to brighten the day of another is a simple compliment. A kind word. If this person works with you, compliment them on something that you saw them do.
1176 miles. From home, to the residential facility and back again. 4 days. The thing about driving. It gives a person a lot of time to think. Ruminations about fatherhood, about things that a person might have done differently for David. I keep coming back to one inalienable truth. We did what we had to do. Not just for David. But for the whole family. No one should live in constant fear from a loved one. Forcing the whole family to live in such a way, at least in my mind, is a form of psychological torture. I include David. David didn’t deserve to be constantly in trouble, constantly talked down to, or treated meanly because of his behaviors. Sure they were relentless. Sure they hurt, but they were a symptom of a larger problem. I pray that the David I spent the last couple of days with continues to grow and develop. Regardless,
My pain tonight comes not from my body, road weary and tired of travel. It doesn’t come from the connective tissue illness with which I have long lived. It comes from saying good bye to David. From leaving him behind in a far off place to be cared for by others. My heart knows that he is in a safe place. In honesty, he is doing very well. Not yet consistent enough to come home. On the other side, there is a sense of joy. Of Gladness. Tomorrow I will be at home with my family. One more night of travel. Tweet #fighting4answrs